So after a whirlwind of hard times, Brent and I have received the most amazing news!
Today I felt so many emotions at once--going back to the ultrasound room was almost more than I could take today. The last time I was in there, I found out Barrett died. To make it harder, when they pulled my information up on the screen, it pulled up all of my measurements and things from Barrett.
Today I am so thankful for an amazing medical team who really made me feel at peace about it--they are taking extra special care of this momma.
I was so ecstatic to find out everything looked perfect and "Baby C" is moving along just great. (I affectionately call it "Baby C" because Audrey is my "A" and Barrett is my "B")
Baby C is our rainbow baby--if you are not a member of the baby loss community, this may be a new term to you--it was for me.
"Rainbow Babies" is the
understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages
of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never
happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath.
What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared
in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover
but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope."
I absolutely love this explanation. The Lord has definitely blessed our little family. It may seem kind of crazy for us to announce this so early--but let me explain. With Barrett, we waited to announce when I hit the 2nd trimester, but we lost him anyway. There is no safe point as I have learned. Because of this I have decided I don't want to hide it at all. I want to rejoice in this blessing with our family, friends, and all of you from the very beginning.
Baby C is due September 13--which just happens to have been my due date. So far, I am really tired but other than that I feel great. I'm craving spinach a lot which is definitely not usual for me, but at least it's good for baby!
I know it's wrong to covet, but right now I honestly do covet your prayers. I am asking you to please keep Baby C covered in prayers. No matter what happens, I pray that once again, God will get the glory in this!